Wednesday, September 9, 2015
Just another day.....
I heard from my daughter Michelle today. She had some good news and to me some sad. Let me say I am so happy for all her accomplishments and her ambition to want more out of life.She was accepted as a language arts teacher for special education children. She has always wanted to teach children with learning disabilities. Finally it has paid off for her, its just that its in Florida. I live here in Pennsylvania. Great opportunity for her but she is just so far.I respect her decision and just pray that all works out for her.
While Im recovering from my accident, I have been reading a lot, watching movies and unfortunately gaining some weight.Which brings me to my new at home diet and recipes that are helping me maintain a healthy weight. I am a very athletic person so just laying around here is killing me.You can also imagine that I am limited to what I can do. So in the mornings I am just eating fruits and caffeine free tea. My favorite is peach flavor. I usually am not very hungry at lunch time but around 5 I am starving so there is my dinner. This allows me to have a treat at around 7. Lets see how long this will last. I have been put out of work for 3 more months.
Sunday, August 23, 2015
Monday, August 17, 2015
Just another Day
This week I also had a visitor. My close friend came by to see me. I have push a lot of people away due to this accident. I did not want to ruin the summer for everyone else. I did not want anyone to feel obligated to have to linger around me because I can not walk by myself. I am a fall risk which means that with or without my walker ,I can still fall. So babysitting me is not what I wanted anyone to be doing this summer. Plus she has 4 children and needed to go on vacation places and take them to do summer things. Things of vacation. This year school starts early. In our state is August 31st. So there goes these children's vacation.
On another note I was just advise that I will be out of work until December 12. Three more months that anticipated. This just makes me understand that the level of fractures that I have are very serious. I just pray a lot. I am very frustrated and I can admit that at times, I question things that I shouldn't. It is not ethical of me to do so because I do believe in the Almighty but I am also a Human made of flesh and therefore will always have sin in mind. The difference is knowing to ask for forgiveness.So as for work, I do not know what to do. I am dying at home. Bored not being able to do anything without this walker.Everywhere I go, I have to drag this thing and it hurts my hands so much.
Well summer reminds me of simple things that I can eat and like. I was going over my cookbook of my favorite chef. Her name is Sandra Lee. I found a recipe that is very simple to make . If you are having a brunch with your friends ,this is very simple to make. It's a Crab Parfait.
All you need is
2 cups shredded lettuce
3/4 cup of premade pico de gallo
1 cup lump crabmeat
1/4 cup premade guacamole
1/4 cup sour cream (optional)
Lemon slice to garnish
In each parfait or large wine glass , layer 1/2 cup shredded lettuce, 2 tablespoon pico de gallo, 1/4 cup crabmeat, 1 tablespoon guacamole, and if you want 1 tablespoon of sour cream. Top with 1 tablespoon of pico de gallo and serve topped with lemon slices...
Also you can do a Jelly Bean Cocktail,
1 shot grape juice
1 shot raspberry liquer
1 shot vanilla vodka
Lemon twist(optional)
Combine all ingredients in a martini shaker filled with ice. Shake vigoriously. Strain into a martini glass and garnish with a twist of lemon..
Just summer things to eat and easy to make... I enjoy...
I'm going to share something that I read...
" Sometimes we're afraid that we've done something unforgivable, afraid that we've made you angry, Father. And we wonder how you can forgive us. But Father, your Word teaches us that you will forgive us and that there is no sin too deep for your hand of forgiveness to reach"...
"If we confess our sins,he will forgive our sins, because we can trust God to do what is right. He will cleanse us from all the wrongs we have done."
1 John 1:9
Have a Wonderful Day....
Tuesday, August 11, 2015
Monday, August 10, 2015
Always on the go
So today I want to vent about my youngest daughter. She is 24 years of age. Not really a little girl but you know what they say, they are always your babies. Now I have always trusted her judgement and never really questions her motives. She has always been a A student. A great gpa score. Our book worm at home and she really loves school. She has done great for herself. Right out of high school she applied to a college all the way out in California. We live in Pennsylvania. So you can see how scare I was but we had faith in her and how can I say no to this opportunity that she had worked so hard for. So we packed her up and went out on a road trip. What an experience that was. Definitely took that off my bucket list. So after a semester it was not quite what she had expected and so she transfer back to the east coast. She ended up choosing Hofstra University and finish her Bachelors at St. John University in New York. Now she had moved back home and had a change of career choice so she was going to go to Marywood University but ended up getting accepted to a program in Florida. Now although she rented a small townhouse and lived by herself, we still had her close by. It was just a small drive. Now she is moving to Florida......Oh My God now what.... I'm not worried about her being far , I am worry because i'm afraid she is running. Although I know that she is strong minded and really chooses what she wants and follows through with it, I can not help myself but think that this is more than meets the eye. I hope I am wrong. I pray to the almighty to please do me another favor and help me watch over our child. I hope that i'm just having a hard time of letting go. She reminds me of myself so much. When I am ready to move, I just go. I never had put any obstacles in my way. Always did what I thought would be best for my children and myself . Now that I come to think about it , I guess it was mostly for myself...
Saturday, August 8, 2015
The Pocono Raceway |
The Lakes are just breath taking.. |
Mount Airy Casino and Spa |
Tuesday, August 4, 2015
Missing them...
I am not to good with the mushy stuff so let me say that I just miss my grandkids... My daughter lives in Virginia and I am not able to see my grandkids as often as I like...this summer I wanted my grandbabies to keep for a month but Im not able to. My car accident has left me disable so I can not watch them... excuse me while I vent... I truly apprecite just letting me go on and on...I know this comes out of nowhere but if I can not say how I feel here ,then were would you like to say it....
Where do I start.. I went to my first physical therapy session today and all thy did was evaluate me to see what exactly I need. Next they work on my foot and gave me some exercises to do at home. So that is out of the way. I was very nervous about the Physical therapy appt. Next my granddaughter went to Florida. I know she is going to have a lot of fun and believe it or not I am sad. Since this accident , I have not been able to do anything with her.When I do get up I am stuck using a walker and can not go places and do nothing with her... I feel like she is not going to want to come home... I did find a picture she made me to look at while she is gone so that I won't miss her... She is great.
To finish it all of, my son returned to work today. I know he was excited but I was afraid for him. He has been here with me for 2 months. We were both in the car accident and he was hurt as well but God is a wonderful being that save not only me but spared my son as well...And now I am still alone in the house with limited things to do.... still can not stand on my own feet and still need the walker but I am grateful... truly could have been worst...
Monday, August 3, 2015
I am doing good today. I do not feel as bad as usual. Hopefully the end of my storm is coming to an end and there is a rainbow waiting for me at the end. I had my second post op check up on the 29th of July and was release to be able to start physical therapy. The official start day is this tuesday and I have 3 times a week for 6 weeks of therapy coming my way. They say the worst is yet to come but I guess unless you have had a break in your ankle and two surgeries you can judge... So we will see how it goes, but what this means is that I am not able to go back to work as planned on the 2nd of Sept... Just send some prayers my way. I am going to need it......
On another note my parents are visiting later this month from Ecuador. I am excited and nervous at the same time. My dad is in need of some medical treatments and my mom is just here to see her grandkids and great granddaughter. They will be staying with me. I can not wait...
Im going to share an inspirational quote I read ...
"The Lord hears people when they cry out to him, and he saves them from all their troubles..
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted, and he saves those whose spirits have been crushed,,"
Psalm 34:17-18
Tuesday, July 28, 2015
Today I would like to say that all who follow my blog know that I had been in a car accident almost two months ago and although you may say a lot of people are in car accidents, this car accident left me disable. I have a bad fracture to my right ankle among other stuff. So I have been suffering with enormous amount of pain. I can not sleep comfortably at night and almost can not sleep at all. For a while now I have been wondering why all this pain. I've been very angry at the thought that the person that hit me might just be roaming the streets while i'm in bed suffering and not able to work. I really can not move much. I have a walker that I need to use for everything so this limits my hand usage. Today I found out that the gentleman that was involved in the car accident with me has past due to drug overdose. As I had stated before I knew he was under the influence of narcotics because it was told to me by the police and he was charged with this and criminal charges for what has happened to me because of this accident.Although I am in the middle of a lawsuit for damages ,hospital bills, etc.... I couldn't help but feel bad for his parents. This gentleman was only 27. My daughter's age. I had hope that the accident would have had more impact and helped him to change his life around. You know like a wake up call. I feel like I'm suffering for no reason now. He hit me while he was on drugs and he overdose and died. So what meaning did this accident have. I had hoped deep inside that he would change his life, so that I can say at least all this that i'm going through had meaning. I wanted to believe that I help turn his life around. But this is not the story.....
Nothing can make me feel better right now. I just said a prayer for his family because after all I am a mother with children and I pray for them constantly. It is easier when they are small and at home you can protect your kids better but when they are grown and out on their own, it truly can become a parents nightmare.....
Saturday, July 25, 2015
I might be criticize for what I just said but remember its just an opinion. Everything is only base on what I have dealt with and what I see.
Let me tell you a little something about my life.One of my children was diagnose a bit late with bipolar symptoms. Now this may not mean much to whose reading but believe me as a mother this is war in my house on a constant basis. When I realize that I needed to get my daughter to see a therapist , I felt like I fail as a mother. I felt that I have been finally punish for how I treated my own parents and karma was about to get me, but why with my child.....
Every therapist in this world (let me not exaggerate) at least the ones that I took my daughter to wanted to medicate her. Her mood swings were all over the place and at first I was going to agree. Who would this benefit I asked myself. My child who look like she was confused or me . It would ease the yelling the attitude the mood swings all the hateful arguments but would this help her or me.
I chose to look for alternative things to do. So her and I both learn to talk more. We learn the best way to deal with a mood swing is to know when its coming and see what is triggering it. My daughter is now 26, this happen when she was 12. She can probably tell you that she is grateful that she was taught how to deal with the emotions and feelings and how to cope, than me giving her a pill and hope it would just go away.... She is a mature woman now with a daughter and although her mood swings will never go away , she doesn't feel like she is crazy or useless. We talk things out and she is an inspiration to me. Her struggles are mine after all I am her mother.
What I learn was how to communicate with my children. I learn how to be a friend when needed, a listener (even though at times I just wanted to yell), be an adviser when asked and best of all a mom...
Just love your children but let them know you love them, even when you just want to kill them. Its the most gratifying feeling when they grow up and say thanks mom for all you have sacrifice for me... don't be so quick to give up
Thursday, July 23, 2015
Greetings and so forth, at this moment in my life I do not know what to say... I'm struggling so much with the pain that has become part of me, that i'm so confused about everything. I am very happy with the fact that the Lord has chosen to spare my son and myself from the car accident I was involved in, but I can not help but wonder why. I know for my son is because he is young and has a lot to still live. A young man innocent in mind but myself i'm a sinner..... Do I deserve to have been spare???? Now my car accident was not my fault. A man that was on drugs hit me head on while i'm on my way to my house. He came on to my lane. Hit my suv so hard that put it on its side. All I kept wondering was why was this man out here doing these things. The police officer stated to me that he was going to be charge criminally with what has happened to me but this does not stop the fact that I am hurt and disable. The Lord spare me. I only had an ankle fracture of my tibia and fibula and God only knows what else on the right ankle. I can not drive or walk on that foot so I am currently walking with a walker and a iron but to protect my foot. I had surgery with all this plates and pins inside that it burns like you wouldn't believe. I am going to enclose a lot of pictures so you all can have an idea of what I have been going through and its only been a month... but it feels like an eternity...
Sunday, July 12, 2015
I feel so lonely.
Good evening to all... Its been a bit since I last blogged... I can say health wise im ok but mentally im depressed... Life as I know it will never be the same for me.. I have been so concern about this surgery and the rehabilitation process so ive been reading a lot of cases and I can say none of them look good... all of them complain about pain and soreness and even infection of the stitched area.... so you can imagine the fear that I have... although I fine myself to be a very religous woman at this moment my faith is being tested... I can not sleep and worst the pain keeps me up almost all night and day...every article I read tells me to take medication as directed but I feel like a drug addict and im afraid of being dependent on them... dont get me wrong there are times I have no choice and I have to but I want to try not to so I can handle things a bit better mentally and emotionally... I play games on my kindle and read my bible and just look at movies to keep me busy. It feels like forever before I can walk again and this is a long road... Nobody can understand how I feel and im tired of trying to make them understand... everyone always says I can imagine what you are going thru but they dont unless they have had the same fracture....All I ask is for prayer... im teally loosing it... I cry and pray for myself but its not enough ....need help... Thank you and msy God bless all of you tonight
Sunday, June 28, 2015
Recooperating
Good day to all.... Happy Sunday as we are all alive today to enjoy... Here in the Pocono Mountains in Pa was cold this morning... My heater was actually turned on.. As you can imagine the scarring from the accident and all the stitches did not do good with this cold weather. It stung like hell....
I have been trying to keep positive in light of all the pain that im in.... I figured it can always be worst but Im so emotional from this whole thing, I can not stop crying...I feel helpless at times .... right now I can not even clean my own room.. For someone like myself thats very hyper this is torterous..
Friday, June 19, 2015
My Angel
Hello to all.. As I sit or lay on my bed most of these days... I am feeling much better but so anxious. Never in a million years fid I ever ecpect to be put down like this. A minor setback a lot of people say but they do not know me well enough.
I am a very active woman in my work and my community. I can not stand to stay still... My grandaughter comes over and just brings me so much joy. She is full of life. So vibrant that to her this will be over soon so I can go play with her outside.... My angel from heaven she is... you just never know who is sent to be your angel at your difficult tome...
Sunday, June 14, 2015
Look at me now
Good day to all... many blessings from me to you..as I am looking at the days go by I see progress but yet such a long recovery... my Dr. told me I might never recover at 100 percent and ill have lifetime of pain....ill let God be the judge of that.... I am a true believer of Jesus and I know he has all my interested at heart and he knows whats best for me..
I had my second surgery since and I must say its easier not having and external cast outside of your foot...you do not have the worries of being able to hit it or get things stuck on it... and the best part is that its not heavy to carry around... but my surgery hurts and burns...
when i get up to attempt a bathroom trip its just that a trip.. I have to use a walker but im more afraid of the pain that comes through my leg just getting up than anything else and then comes the burning feeling that goes through my toes... I have been belittle to the point that I can not even brush my teeth by myself or wash my hair, take a shower or even just wash up on my own... its upsetting me and all I can do is just cry.. i keep asking God to give me the strength to move on from this but they have no idea what this has done to my family..... I get angry and ask for forgiveness for my feelings.... I need to recover and fast...Pray for me all of you...please
Thursday, June 11, 2015
surgery day
Good day to all.. many blessings from me to you.. Today I go in for the second phase of the reconstruction of my ankle/foot... as you may remember I had a car accident on June 1st and fracture my right ankle out of all places... So keep me in your prayers today... Although I know all will be well.. I am a child of the living God and he will never forsake me.
Wednesday, June 10, 2015
ouch....
Good day to all.
Peace be unto you today... I am on my way to get pre admission screening to see if Ill be ok for surgery tommorow.... the Drs. will be removing this temporary cast and starting to reconstruct my tibia and fibula which I fracture in a car accident that I was in on monday June 1st. Its been a hell of a week but at least I still have life.... I just want to get to the point of just healing and no pain meds and no casts ...
Sunday, June 7, 2015
Light after darkness
Lord ...just thank you... After seeing my car in the conditions that it was I can only say thank you Jesus for lifting my son and myself and those individuals that struck my vehicle...we all manage to walk out with our lives in tact... I have a broken ankle and some bruises everywhere and my son has a swollen knee and some stitches on his hand.....God is good... I love the lord....
Friday, May 8, 2015
Spring is here
Good morning all... hope you are having a blessed day in the presence of our Lord Jesus Christ... I am only aharing this because I can not believe finally I see flowers... Its May 8th and no flowers in sight. The trees are barely blooming and making matters worst, no grass and no rain to help grow that which is planted in the ground. Yesterday I finally bought my first flower pot to plant. So happy. Weather is good and hopefully it will stay this way so that the flowers can grow.. after all this is spring... just a month away from summer... take care and enjoy the roses...
Monday, May 4, 2015
Happy Birthday
Just want to wish my grandbaby a Happy Birthday wish..... I love Jenelle and heres too many more years with our Lords blessings...
1st of the Month
Good Morning everyone...
I hope that all of you are well in health spirit and all the above. Here in the Pocono Mountain we are finally getting to enjoy some warm air but its still pretty cold for the season. We haven't begun to see much flowers bloom or trees sprout for that matter... not a good sign. We have not had rain showers and its May already. I have been watering the plants in the hopes to revive them but no luck.
May is a special month for me. Not only did my first born daughter arrive 36 years ago ,but also a grandchild. My darling little bundle of joy who now turns 6 this year and reminds me everyday about her big day...also we have in this month Mother's day and Memorial Day. Sounds like a lot of barbecues (weather permitting), or at least readons to have one. This winter has been brutal to us here in the mountain.I hope not so tough by you....I am a firm believer that God has a plan and these things happen for a reason ... only he sees the bigger picture....
Thursday, April 16, 2015
Thanking God for Friends
Hello all.... hope your day is full of blessings, love and peace....
Today was a good day for me and my close friend. She had lost her mother last month and had to clean the residence were her mom live to return the apartment back to the landlord... you just never realize how much stuff we have until we have to move... needless to say tons of memories. It is very difficult to pack your mothers things and get rid of it... impossible at times but with much prayer and friends you can do it..... so I had the privilidge ti help her ... we clean and pack a few days and then it was our final day.. we said a prayer and thank God for all the years that were given to enjoy life there for my friend as her mother raise her and her sister with the barely minimal as most single mothers do today....
Cherish your mom..
she is your everything at every occasion in your life.....you never expect to be loosing your mom at a young age but God has other plans...
Tuesday, April 14, 2015
Monday, April 6, 2015
Easter
Happy Resurrection Day... its the day we celebrate when Christ rose from the dead and prove to the world his eternal and unconditional love for us... I'm so forever grateful and thankful... we are chosen people.... be graceful and enjoy the grace that you are living in... its eternal
Tuesday, March 31, 2015
Snow in spring
Hello everyone... hope all is well and blessed... quick note... I can not believe that here in the Pocono Mountains we are still getting blizzard like conditions... As i was driving home yesterday, my vehicle felt like it was being pushed of the road . The wind was so strong... Its about 3:30 in the morning and the roads are icy... on my way to work on this commuter bus just in cae you are wondering what the heck am I doing up at this time. Have a wonderful blessed day...
Tuesday, March 3, 2015
Just Because
Hello to everyone. I hope that as you get to tead my post today ,you are somewhere warm... As you already know ,I am in the Pocono Mountains in Pa. We tend to get a lot of snow here but this year its been more like ice rain and brutal cold weather... Its hard to believe its suppose to be over soon... Spring is like 16 days away.
Today has just been a non-productive day for me. I feel gloomy and depress. Hopefully its because of the weather. Although I am grateful that I have work, I just wish I can be home for the rest of this winter... I can only hope spring wont be a soaking one with a lot of storms and rain...Im very afraid of thunderstorms...will hide and cry like a baby...
To all of you be safe ... be happy
God is with you...
Thursday, February 19, 2015
Hello everyone... I hope all is well. We in the Pocono mountains are having a hell of a winter... its said to be the 5th coldest winter in the month of February in years...There has been states that has been colder than Canada if you can believe that.... The weather today us -4 F and tommorow its suppose to be colder....all I can say is I am so ready for winter to be over... the snow here has reached about 3 ft....nothing compare to Boston who thus far has 8 ft but its still a hassle and dangerous...God help us all
Saturday, February 7, 2015
snow, snow and more snow
omg..can we stop with the snow... We have so much snow and more keeps coming..what the heck...I wish we can bag it up and take it to the west coast were there are droughts...
Sorry for the complaining but its been a hectic winter for us here in Pennsylvania...hope all is well at your neck of the woods