Good evening to all... Its been a bit since I last blogged... I can say health wise im ok but mentally im depressed... Life as I know it will never be the same for me.. I have been so concern about this surgery and the rehabilitation process so ive been reading a lot of cases and I can say none of them look good... all of them complain about pain and soreness and even infection of the stitched area.... so you can imagine the fear that I have... although I fine myself to be a very religous woman at this moment my faith is being tested... I can not sleep and worst the pain keeps me up almost all night and day...every article I read tells me to take medication as directed but I feel like a drug addict and im afraid of being dependent on them... dont get me wrong there are times I have no choice and I have to but I want to try not to so I can handle things a bit better mentally and emotionally... I play games on my kindle and read my bible and just look at movies to keep me busy. It feels like forever before I can walk again and this is a long road... Nobody can understand how I feel and im tired of trying to make them understand... everyone always says I can imagine what you are going thru but they dont unless they have had the same fracture....All I ask is for prayer... im teally loosing it... I cry and pray for myself but its not enough ....need help... Thank you and msy God bless all of you tonight
